Sharing My {Infertility} Story

If you’ve recently started following me, or don’t know me personally, you may not know that I struggled with infertility for 7 years before conceiving my son. For a little over 6 of those years, I went undiagnosed and was told I had “unexplained infertility”. I saw numerous doctors & specialists, I went to naturopath doctors, took natural supplements, went through treatments and still could not conceive.

As you can imagine, this was a very stressful and dark time…

I was really into exercise during this time and would turn my stress into hours at the gym. I also counted every calorie I ate and rarely indulged…and when I did, it would just mean more hours at the gym the next day. I needed to feel in control of something, and since having a baby was completely out of my control, watching what I ate and pushing myself at the gym was my way of coping.

Little did I know that my restrictive diet {1000-1200 calories a day} and intense workouts were to blame for my infertility. It wasn’t until April of 2012 that I realized the way I was living was keeping me from my dream of becoming a momma. I knew that changing my lifestyle and the way I viewed food & exercise wasn’t going to be easy, but it was my last shot and I had to do whatever I could to get better.

So I gave up working out and doubled my calorie intake…

At first it was nerve wracking, but it didn’t take long for me to feel that sense of being “free“. Free from the restriction, free from the guilt and free from the voices in my head telling me I had to look a certain way or be a certain size. I ate full fat dairy, lots of nut butters, avocado, olive oil, whole grains, red meat, veggies & fruit and I felt AMAZING! I was starting to see food in a totally different way…it was no longer calories in, now it was delicious and enjoyable.

Not long after I started living my new lifestyle I became pregnant. I was elated and couldn’t believe that all it took was giving my body rest and gaining weight to finally see those two pink lines. Unfortunately we lost our first baby. It was the day after our 7 year anniversary and our first doctor’s appointment…we saw our little one on the screen, but there was no heartbeat. I was heartbroken and devastated but knew that I couldn’t give up. I could get pregnant again and I would.

Twenty pounds and 6 months later, I conceived my sweet Jase…

Just a few hours old <3

This came almost exactly 7 years after we first made the decision to start trying for a baby. In that moment all the memories of those 7 years flooded over me and I couldn’t believe it was finally over.The day I met my son is a day that will be etched in my memory forever. It still brings tears to my eyes when I think about the moment I first held him in my arms.

After going through my journey, I knew in my heart that I needed to share. There is no reason why someone should have to endure years of heartache and pain when they’re struggling to get pregnant in the way that I did. I now have a passion for living life in a truly healthy way and it’s my goal to help as many women as possible live the very same way.  I not only want to help others who suffer from infertility {HA} but also those who have low self esteem due to their weight.

To join my closed Facebook group for women struggling with Hypothalamic Amenorrhea, click here.

You can read my full infertility story here.

XOXO,

~P

***Thank you for reading along! If you’d like to read more about HA Recovery, please visit me  HERE.***

13 thoughts on “Sharing My {Infertility} Story

  1. Jessica says:

    this is just so incredibly. so brave of you to share it, and I’m so proud of you for getting to where you are now!! 🙂

  2. Jessie says:

    I’m so sorry that you had to go through that! Dealing with infertility is very sad and frustrating. Thanks for sharing your story! Children are great blessings.

  3. Tanya says:

    Thank u so much for sharing your story. I am currently struggling with HA and have been for 7 years. My husband and I have been trying to have children as well with no luck. Your story is so inspiring and I am so happy for you and your family!

    • P. Jeanne says:

      I’m so sorry to hear this…please PLEASE reach out to me if you ever need to talk <3 You can email me if that's easier {findingpurehappiness@gmail.com}...thank you for reading along, best wishes to you <3

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