How has it already been 3 years? I’ve heard the phrase “time flies” many times in my life, but it’s never been more true since becoming a momma…
I lived so much of my adult life bound by infertility. I’d often spend my days trying to convince myself that being a momma just wasn’t meant to be. That I needed to find something else to fill the deep hole in my heart. When you spend so much of your life under a dark cloud, never seeing the light, you start to believe that this is just how life is supposed to be.
Finding my diagnosis and embarking on my recovery journey brought with it a whirlwind of emotion…
I was elated and determine when I finally found the answer to my struggle with infertility, then the heartbreak of a miscarriage knocked me off my feet. I was angry that this had to be so difficult, but knew that I needed to stay strong…finally the feeling of pure joy at the sight of those two pink lines.
It still feels like yesterday that you came into our lives. You were a stubborn little one going 6 days past your due date, a peek into your personality perhaps? 😉 Those first few months were pure magic. Living my life in 3 hour increments, with early mornings rocking you while the sun came up to late nights walking around the house when you protested sleep.
You my boy have filled that void in my heart and more. Having you gave me purpose, it changed the person I am and the way I see life. Just one look at you and my heart skips a beat. And your smile gets me every.single.time…I fear I’m going to have to keep the girls away somehow when you get older 😉
I tell you I love you multiple times a day and you reply back with “I love you too much!” How did I get so lucky?!?!
Now not every day is rainbows and sprinkles…you have the stubbornness of your father and the determination to keep me on my toes! But, even on the hard days you always make me so proud <3 You are an amazing big brother, a great helper and such a silly little guy.
You started school this year and I think it came at the perfect time. You are thriving and loving every minute of it! It’s so fun to hang your artwork on the fridge…kind of surreal for me to see it up there I have to admit.
My sweet sweet Jase…
You my boy are truly loved and so very special to us all. I’m excited to see what you’ll be like as you grow older and what sorts of things you’ll be into. But one things for sure…I know there will be many many laughs and great times in our future <3
Happy 3rd birthday Handsome Boy!