Letting the Walls Fall…

I’m not sure what kind of friendships you have. Maybe you’re the type who has her “core friends”, the ones she can open up to and be vulnerable with. Maybe these friendships are effortless, the give and take being equal on either side. Or maybe you’re more like me, craving connection and true friendship…

I’ve had a few people come into my life and make a BIG impact, but unfortunately time and distance has caused most of them to drift away. Leaving only a few intact. Maybe it’s due to being home full time, or perhaps living in a fairly “new to me” city that leaves me wanting more. More connection. More acceptance. More love.

Unfortunately, the walls I’ve built around my heart have kept me from experiencing this type of friendship.

The fear of being hurt yet again by someone I’ve let into the core of my heart, has caused me to put up a barrier. A protection. To keep my heart safe from the pain I know too well. The problem is, unless I’m willing to risk heartbreak, I will never experience true friendship. 

Over the course of this last year I’ve felt a tug on my heart. A whisper from God saying, “let the walls fall.” Ugh. Just thinking about it makes my chest feel tight. But I know it must be done. So I take a baby step. I put myself out there. I plan a playdate. I go to events I where I know almost no one.

I slowly let the walls fall.

It’s been a refining progress to say the least. I slowly start to let my guard down only to put it right back up again. But just as always, I hear the whisper again. So I pick myself up, I let vulnerability lead the way and I take another step forward.

I’m definitely not where I want to be, but I’m getting there. I’m becoming more intentional about who God has placed in my life. I’m focused on cultivating those relationships with the understanding that they may only be for a season and that’s ok.

I’m letting the walls fall.

I’m opening up.

I’m becoming vulnerable.

I’m letting people see the real me.

I’m experiencing community & what it means to have true friends.

And for this I am grateful…

If you’re in a season where you’re craving more, I challenge you to take that first step. Send that text. Plan that playdate (or girls day). Open your heart and take a risk. We were meant to experience this life together, not alone. But it starts with you.

XOXO,

~P

4 thoughts on “Letting the Walls Fall…

  1. Lindsey says:

    So proud of you for doing this and making these connections. Never in my life has friendship been so important as now – I want those true connections and others that understand mom life.
    I have also had friends come and go more these last few years and try hard to remember that these are busy seasons of life and even if those friendships don’t find their way back that is okay – everything happens for a reason.
    PS I say this so much but I wish we lived closer 🙂

    • P. Jeanne says:

      Thank you Linds, so SO true <3 I'm so grateful for your friendship and so wish we lived closer too! Thank goodness we have our AZ meet-ups 😉 XOXO

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