Each year I like to come up with a word or theme for that year. As I thought about this year and what I felt this year should represent, I kept coming back to this idea of making it the year of Creativity.
I’ve always felt like a creative person.
As a child I would dream that one day I would become an artist. I remember having notebooks, colored pencils and crayons at my ready so that I could draw whenever inspiration hit. Eventually that dream faded and in it’s place, the dream of writing music took it’s place.
In my early twenties I had the opportunity to experience just that. My younger brother is an incredibly talented musician, and I just happen move back home for a year, so we would spend our days writing music and sharing it with others every chance we got.
But then the realization that the life of musician was not for me once again caused that dream to fade..
Over the last decade, I haven’t experienced much creativity.
I guess that’s what happens when you allow life and heartbreak consume you and your energy. You quickly forget the things that set your soul on fire, or maybe you haven’t quite figured out what those things are yet?
Both are true for me. Life had this way of making forget how much I need creativity in my life to make me feel alive. And I guess I hadn’t quite figured out what creativity would look like for me now.
I didn’t realize it at first, but for the past 3 years I was cultivating a new form of creativity: Writing.
I’ve never considered myself to be a writer. In fact, I didn’t even enjoy reading books until I was into my mid twenties. And it wasn’t until the last few years that I’ve truly come to love them. So much so, that I practically devour a book within days of it landing in my hands.
For me, words have this way of moving me in a way I’ve never felt before. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve read a book and felt truly changed for the better. And so I guess it would make sense that writing words of my own would have this same sort of effect.
And so, I will set about this year with creativity in the driver seat.
For the past year, I’ve been hearing this little voice encouraging me to write, not just posts like this one, but a book. Crazy right?? Even just writing those words for you to read feels a little surreal.
But I think God has been preparing me for this all along. He’s been grooming me to become a writer. From my early days of writing songs with my brother, to my crazy love for books, to the past few years writing posts here and on my Infertility website.
And now that I have this clear idea and vision of where I can find creativity in my life, while using the gifts God has given me to encourage others and share my heart, I feel unstoppable.
I have no idea how this will all unfold, but I’m ready to enjoy the ride…
I have so many ideas of what types of books I’d like to right, but first I’ll start with a book about my journey through infertility, what I learned and how others going through it can make their way to the “other side”. My hope is that this book will be like talking to your best friend for those struggling in the way I once did.
And so there you have it…a book. I’m sure there will be many ups and down in this process, but I’m also sure that it will be a year I will never forget!