The End of a Decade Long Chapter

January 1, 2006: A day I will never forget. It was the beginning of our “Trying to Conceive” journey and a decade of pain, struggles & miracles…

For the first seven years of our journey, I was in a downward spiral brought on by the pain of feeling broken. The inability to give my husband a child, the one thing only I could give him, was incredibly difficult to get through. My days were spent trying to figure it all out…why was this happening and what had I done to deserve this? I’d have days where I was determined to get to the bottom of my infertility and days when I felt my dream of becoming a momma slipping further and further away. Little did I know that my toxic relationship with diet and exercise were to blame for it all.

Fast forward to February 7th, 2013:

The day I found out my little Jase was growing in my belly. At this point I had already gone through 7 years of infertility and a miscarriage. I remember feeling completely elated and terrified at the same time. Praying that this little one would make it and I’d finally get to bring home the baby I had dreamed of for so long.

October 25th, 2013: The day my sweet boy was born and I finally became a momma.

The moment I laid eyes on my precious little guy was a moment that will be etched in my memory forever. Tears of joy and the release of all the pain and struggles I had gone through to get to this point came flowing out of me. In this moment, it all became clear to me. I was meant to go through my journey. It taught me so much about who I am and what I want out of life and it brought me to my sweet boy <3

Just a few hours old <3

Just a few hours old <3

The year that followed, I had a really hard time imagining loving another child as much as I loved Jase. I had always dreamed of having two children, but couldn’t quite understand how much heart could possibly love another so intensely. The day we found out our sweet Savannah was growing in my belly I was in complete shock. I had only been off birth control for 6 weeks and after everything we had experienced with Jase I just couldn’t believe it could happen so quickly. My heart felt torn in that moment. I was in awe of how well my body had healed and the ease of getting pregnant for a second time, I was excited to add to our family but also really sad that my one-on-one time with Jase was coming to an end.

December 1st, 2015: Our sweet girl was born <3

Instantly I was in love. I cried tears again, but this time not from the pain of the past but for the beautiful future that I was about to embark on. As I looked into my precious baby girls eyes, I knew that she was meant to be the perfect addition to our family. The cherry on top <3

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Just a few minutes old <3

It’s now been just over 10 years since we first embarked on our TTC journey and I feel so incredibly blessed and lucky for all that has happened throughout those ten years. It wasn’t always easy, but it lead me to the life I had always dreamed of. I often get asked if we’ll have more and as ironic as it may sound for someone who wanted children for so long, the answer is no. I feel so complete with my two miracles and so ready for the adventures that we will go on as a family.

About a week and a half ago, I took the final step in our journey and “closed up shop”. I do not feel sad that I will never be pregnant again, I’m not even sad that Savannah will be our last baby…I’m living my dream, I’m enjoying each stage and know that as great as it is now, it only gets better. I’m excited for what’s in store and so glad to be moving on to this next chapter in our lives…

XOXO,

~P

 

P.S. If you’d like to read more about my TTC journey, you can read my first blog “Finding Jase” here.

Savannah Jeanne’s Birthstory

I’m so excited to introduce you to our sweet baby girl: Savannah JeanneΒ  <3

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Savannah was born on December 1st, 2015 at 1:57pm. She weighed in at 7lbs 6oz and is 19 1/4″ long.

Her birth story:

On Monday I went in for a check up with my midwife. I was 40 weeks 3 days and at that point I was pretty convinced I was going to have to be induced. I had progressed to 3cm, but the baby was still sitting pretty high and my contractions hadn’t picked up at all. I decided that I would spend the rest of the day keeping busy with errands in hopes that it would get things moving along.

Most of the day I felt pretty crampy but chalked it up to the exam I had earlier that morning. That evening I was feeling lots of pain and pressure, but that had been happening every night for the past week, so I didn’t really think much of it. I went to bed around 10pm and fully expected the following day to be just like the last few had been. But to my surprise, I woke up to some pretty strong contractions at around midnight. I tried to fall back to sleep but it just wasn’t happening, so at around 1:30am on Tuesday morning I decided to go out to the living room and time them. At that point the contractions were coming every 8 mins, so I knew we still had time and there was no need to wake my hubby. I watched some Christmas movies and tried to close my eyes for a bit before my hubby woke around 6am. I told him that I was having contractions but didn’t think anything would be happening soon, so I decided to get up and do a few things around the house…HOLY COW! Almost immediately my contractions picked up and were coming fast and strong! I called my dad since he was first on call to watch Jase then started to get myself ready. Finally at about 8am we were ready to head to the hospital!

We arrived around 8:30am and I was just hoping I had progressed enough to stay. With Jase I was sent home the first time we went in and I was afraid this time would be the same. Luckily I was already dilated to about 7cm so I was most definitely staying!! We got checked into our room around 9am and started the long process of getting hooked up to all kinds of machines and answering all kinds of questions.

At around 10:30am, the anesthesiologist came in to give me my epidural and I was SO happy to see her! By this point my contractions were getting super strong and I was most definitely ready for it. I was checked again shortly after and was at 8cm. We spent the next couple of hours watching the Food Network and chatting to pass the time. Suddenly at around 1:30pm I felt a gush and was certain my water had just broke. Sure enough it had, and when the nurse checked me she was surprised to feel the baby’s head and noted that I was indeed at 10cm!

My midwife came in shortly after to get things preped. Then at about 1:50 she told me I could start pushing, yippee! After only 2 pushes the baby’s head was out and the midwife was able to get the rest of body out without any help from me. Immediately she was placed on my chest (something I didn’t get to do with Jase because he was so late) and I instantly fell in love <3 Tears streamed down my face as I looked into our sweet girls beautiful blue gray eyes. I can’t believe I’m finally at this point in my life. I’ve always dreamed of being a momma to two beautiful babies <3

I’m so excited to see where this life will lead us with our little ones and to watch them grow up together…nothing is better than this <3

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XOXO,

~P

 

 

Newborn Favorites

Now that we’re nearing the end of my pregnancy, I thought it would be fun to share some of my favorite newborn items!

Snuggle Me Cushion: A friend introduced this to me when Jase was about 3 months old. At that point, we were really struggling with getting him to sleep and I was desperate. This cushion was a lifesaver, he instantly relaxed and would sleep for hours. It’s also super light and easy to travel with! We used it until he was about 7 months old and I’m so happy that I’ll have it from day 1 with baby S. It fits perfectly in her bassinet that I’ll keep by my side of the bed πŸ™‚


Swaddleme Swaddles: When we first had Jase I tried to use the regular swaddle blankets but I could never get them tight enough. Luckily I received a few a these at my baby shower and they were SO much easier! The velcro helps to keep little ones from wiggling their arms out and startling themselves in their sleep πŸ™‚

Honest Co. 4 in 1 Baby Carrier: I tried a few different carriers with Jase and this one was by far the most comfortable! It has a support belt that runs at the bottom keeping the weight off your shoulders, making it a lot easier to wear for longer periods of time. I’m so excited to have it ready to go with baby S since I’m sure I’m going to need both hands free the majority of the time! πŸ˜‰


Fisher Price Swing: We purchased this swing when Jase was about 4 months old and we used it for quite a while. It was a great place for him to nap in the living room or just hang out while I got things done around the house. I think it’ll be one of our most used items once baby S arrives since I’m now working from home. The plan is to put it in my office so she can be nearby while I’m doing my work!

And those are some of my favorites items to have on hand with a newborn! As you can see they mostly revolve around sleep, because well, that’s pretty much what they do at this age πŸ˜‰

XOXO,

~P

 

Third Trimester {Pregnancy} Favorites

Since this is my second pregnancy, I definitely feel more confident in the necessities when it comes to each trimester. Today I’m going to share with you some of my favorite pregnancy items for the Third Trimester…

Blanqi Belly Support Band

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A friend of mine introduced this product to me and I’m so glad she did! It has been a HUGE help in this last trimester now that my belly is growing by the day. Not only does it provide support, but I’m able to get more use out of my pre-pregnancy clothes which is a win in my book! I bought one in white & black and they’ve pretty much become a staple in my wardrobe these days.

Honest Co. Belly Balm

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As soon as I found out I was pregnant I purchased this belly balm. Those of you that know me, know that I LOVE the Honest Co. and have tried just about every product they offer! This balm goes on super smooth and doesn’t leave a greasy feeling behind. I use it every day and so far no stretch marks!!

Body Pillow

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As many of you may know, sleep in the third trimester can be rough! I highly recommend buying yourself a body pillow to help with those sleepless nights. It helps support the belly making it much easier to get comfortable and get a good nights rest!

Mom’s On Call

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When Jase was four months old I reached out to a friend about this book since we were dealing with some VERY sleepless nights. She had a lot of success with the techniques that the author uses, so I decided to give it a try…LIFESAVER! I’ve since recommended it to a few of my friends who have all had success with it as well, definitely make sure it goes on your reading list!

XOXO,

~P