It all started on New Year’s Day 2006…
My hubby and I had been married for 6 months and were more than ready to start a family. It was like this switch went off in my heart and the yearning to have a baby of my own was STRONG…So we set about our trying to conceive journey and boy what a journey it would be!
I had yet to have a cycle since coming off birth control and after numerous negative pregnancy tests, I decided it was time to seek help. So we met with a specialist and were told I had unexplained infertility, but could be easily fixed with treatment.
Not exactly how I envisioned this chapter of my life going, but it didn’t matter…all I knew was that the yearning had become stronger and I ached for my future baby.
After multiple failed treatments, I sought out more natural methods. Still nothing. Years would go by and the ache in my heart quickly turned to defeat.
One very important thing to mention is when my hubby and I got married I had just become a personal trainer and spent hours upon hours at the gym both training clients as well as myself. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but as it turned out this was a HUGE deal in my story.
I turned to more exercise, less eating and more focus on what my body looked like.
I figured since I couldn’t control what was going on inside my body, I was going to do everything I could to control what was going on, on the outside and have the body I had always dreamed of.
Over 6 years of this lifestyle went by and as time kept ticking away, I tried to convince myself that I didn’t need to have a baby. That the yearning I felt for all those years was wrong. Becoming a momma wasn’t in the cards for me.
It was the year of my 30th birthday and I had pretty much given up on having children, until a chance meeting that will be etched in my memory forever. It lead me to a diagnosis (Hypothalamic Amenorrhea) that I had never heard, of but knew without a doubt that it was the cause of all the heartache I felt for so long.
There was no turning back. This was my last chance at making my dreams come true and I was going to give it everything I could. I stopped exercising. I ate like never before. I gained weight. I worked on my self confidence. I got my cycle back and I got PREGNANT.
I no longer doubted my body’s ability to get pregnant. And I would do it again. I remember promising myself that one day when I was free from HA, I would find a way to help others do the same.
Then in February of 2013, I saw two pink lines & my little miracle came into being. Jason Eugene was born in October that year and the moment I first laid my eyes on him, I knew that all those years & all the heartache was worth it. And I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat.
Savannah Jeanne was born in December of 2015 and has completed our family in a way I didn’t know we needed.
My mission now is to help others who are struggling in the way I once did, as well as share about my life now, on the other side. When I think of all those years and every step I took along the way, I can now see it was God’s way of preparing me for my calling. There isn’t a day that goes by that I’m not eternally grateful for my journey and ability to connect with other women on the topics of Infertility & Motherhood.
I’m so honored that you would stop by this space of mine. I would love the opportunity to connect with you, please don’t hesitate to reach out…